Have you ever felt the way I do these days? Yes, you probably have. Everyone once in a while feels something other people feel at one time or the other. This happens to all of us. I feel dissatisfied. Why?
I have a job in this time of recession. I have a nice family who cares for me. I have more money than I can spend. I have my best friend totally and madly in love with me. What more do I want?
I have no idea. But still I know exactly what I want. I want to be happy and I am not.
Maybe I am just too sensitive. I see so much wrong happening around me that it just feels that I should not be happy. I used to be a very cheerful and happy person. People commented on the fact that why was I constantly smiling. But now I guess I don’t.
I see war. I see mayhap. I see blood.
But what can I do?
I just read ‘Three cups of tea’. A very interesting book about ‘One man’s mission to promote peace… one school at a time’. Greg Mortenson is this wonderful human being who is fighting his own war against terrorism by educating the people of Northern Pakistan and Afghanistan. I wish I could do the same.
Help the world be a better place so that I can feel better. I know this is selfish but then I am better than those people who can so easy plan to kill innocent lives. Their humanity is dead. Mine is not. If I am selfish and feel the need to make myself feel better, then at least I feel that I do feel.
But what is don’t understand is what to do. I am a very confused person. I don’t know where to start!